Thank you for coming to my presentation of learning. I am the expert on my own learning. I am also responsible and accountable for my own learning. You can expect me to give an honest evaluation of my progress. We will discuss my strengths and opportunities for growth. Thank you in advance for listening and for offering feedback that I can use to improve as a learner.

Vision Mission Values

Vision: “The best person I can be at my graduation is a learner that can focus and has strived to be the best person without taking shortcuts. I want to be someone who can handle a post secondary education and be able to collaborate outside of a school setting.”

Mission: “I will improve how I work with others and make the most out of the environment and our work. The way that I can make a group better is by bringing my physical and artistic skills to the table. My skills can help bring creativity to our projects and physical displays in exhibitions. This makes a group’s multitasking easier, for example; one person focuses on something they can do, while I build, draw, or think about anything we need to add, which saves us time in the long run. I want to keep myself accountable and help build on my focusing and resilience. I want to be able to not get discouraged by setbacks or mistakes I make during the process.”

Values:

Reflection and Changes

Focusing Exclusively on the last sentence in my “Mission”; I have not quite met this goal.

Lately I’ve gotten very discouraged when I come across any obstacle. This is an issue mainly with my self esteem. For example: during writing assignments I get very caught up in the fact I have less work done or that my work isnt as good as others people. I make everything an unspoken competition with the people near me and I constantly lose. I get upset over not understanding the work or not thinking of a good opening sentence so I get stubborn and stop doing it entirely, this closely resembles something I believe is called “learned helplessness”.

Theres a video out there explaining what it is really well but to sum it up, a teacher gave her students a sheet with 3 anagrams. Half of the class had easy words like rat(art) or lime(mile), while the other half was given impossible words. The last word on both sheets were the same, but the side that had the impossible words weren’t able to get the word/gave up while the other side of the class had all managed to get the word.

As for the vision, I believe I’m on track to become the person I described, I know I’m able to collaborate outside of a classroom. I’m on my way to be someone who can actually take their own accountability, an example is flight training and ground school.

Looking at my values, I feel like I’ve been able to hold up most of what I set for myself. Even though it’s not always in BCFP or humanities, I’m usually engaged, answering questions and adding to discussion whenever I can. I’m able to take care of myself and not get buried in work even though my schedule can be overwhelming at times. I take mental breaks when i need them and lock in when it’s necessary.

Something I know I need to work on is my agency. I’ve somewhat mentioned in other areas that I need to work on my agency and my accountability. I know that I’ve definitely grown in this area but I’m nowhere near the place I want to be. I can be very lazy with my work, once I’ve handed it in I’m not touching it, I’ve been on a steady decline in my energy with school all year and its really hitting me all recently. As I’ve mentioned, setbacks are very discouraging and I have not been accountable for my work lately. I used to stay at school after choir until 5:30 some days just working on math homework. This habit has unfortunately fallen apart and most days I don’t finish my math homework by the next class, which can get me super behind since new work is being assigned every class.

By the end of this year I want to really be able to be accountable for my work and my life without much parental support. This is mentioned in my “Values” under agency.

Thank you for coming and listening to my mPOL, I appreciate the time you’ve taken out of your day to listen.╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

Even though this project happened in September. I feel like this blog post came at the right time, since I have been dealing with a lot lately, and maybe not focusing as much on things that are best for my health. It’s been a topic of discussion in my house, so this gave me a chance to reach out to my parents to discuss something new, rather than things that didn’t work so well in the past. In the end, we came up with a contract, which I’ll attach a screenshot of below.

In the past, most of what I tried to improve was screens and sleep. In a way, it’s the same now, but with a new approach. Before, when my parents have tried to improve my sleep health, they forced me to bring them all of my electronics every night at a certain time. This didn’t work very well because on my end I’d be angry, and on their end, they felt bad for not showing trust in me to just put them away in my room. No one really ended up winning.

Part of the thing we agreed on this time was a balance of freedom and accountability. For them, they know that a fully strict approach doesn’t really work with me. And for me, I know that if I’m trying to make big changes, I need to be held accountable or I might not follow through.

The first part of the conversation was talking about what hadn’t worked in the past. Next, we talked about how they’d love for me to just have no screens at all, but that it’s not realistic. So, finally they brought up incentives, and that even though I’ve been tired a lot of the time, I still didn’t have much of an incentive to change things. They said they’d love something that incentivizes me putting all of my screens away before 10:30 and not touching them again until my alarm goes off in the morning. Their first thought was money, but they wanted to hear from me. I told them that with my stressful schedule, it’s hard to wake up in the mornings, especially lately, and the incentive I wanted was to take a personal day once a month in order to give myself a break.

Eventually, we settled on a weekly payout, where the daily average gets higher if I do more days in a row. If I do one or two days, it amounts to 2$ a day. If I do three or four days, it comes out to 7$ a day. If I do all five days in the schoolweek, I get 10$ per day. The other things is that I can’t ask for money anymore, and this is going to be where my money comes from. The last thing is that there will be a payout each time I read a full book. I will try.